I overcame my Fear of rejection and I let go of the insecurities holding me back.
I made my Street Debut last night, as promised.
Lets back up a bit..............
This past weekend I attended the Millionaire Mind Intensive by T. Harv Eker. It was an intense, enlightening 3 day Seminar which included various techniques for getting in touch with your demons, shedding your childhood programming, ridding your mind of negative thoughts, and learning the ways of The Force.
The Seminar enabled you to learn and train your Jedi powers, while gaining valuable knowledge about wealth and money. One process helped us learn to overcome our fear.
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Here are some ways I have changed since this weekend:
1. I no longer resent rich people.
2. I will become a rich person so I can live my dreams
3. I have drastically improved my ability to socialize, and at the same time I have shed some of the inhibitions that keep me from living my life, acting silly, and meeting interesting and diverse people.
4. I have come to terms with my deepest demons and faced them so that I may love myself more and allow myself the freedom to live without baggage.
5. I have realized the negative thoughts that hold me back, and I have replaced them with kick-ass thoughts
6. I have learned tools and techniques to avoid muddling my mind
7. I have tasted "the secret" and the process of manifestation.
8. I have gained the strength to overcome my fears
That last one is BIG.
I am a Violinist. My Dream is to play. I want to play in the world, in the streets, in the public.
I want to be the soundtrack to your Moment. I want to be the pretty melody over car horns and urban chaos. I want to inspire people as I have been inspired by the free-spirited street musicians I have encountered in my past. I want to be in the midst of the action, yet in my own perfect zone, just me and my notes.
For years my fears and insecurities have kept me from reaching this dream.
Near the end of the Seminar we broke through our fears by breaking an arrow with our throat. On my arrow was written my fears. I will never forget the absolute triumph I felt after hearing that "Snap."
Full of Energy and pure joy, I decided to share with the rest of the Seminar my fear and what I would do to overcome it. I took the mic and told everyone that I would be playing my Violin on Pine St. and Ocean next weekend. I was then told by the speaker that I should do this sooner. The next day, 7 PM, Pine and Ocean.
I agreed, and made a promise to the Universe, and to Myself, that it was time to end this, and start a new beginning.
The World is MY Playground, this is MY Life, and damn it, I want to play my violin out on the street.
So I did.
Yes I was nervous most of the day, and I spent quite some time listening to the top 40 most Inspirational songs ever, including but not limited to:
"Final Countdown" - Europe
"Lose Yourself" - Eminem
"Alive" - Celine Dion
"Chariots of Fire"
And the beautiful song I had the pleasure of experiencing in unifying bliss at the Seminar: "Moment in Time" by Whitney Houston.
Finally the moment came. I donned my electric blue fishnets and placed the broken arrow in my violin case. I gathered my 2 best friends (who are so amazing and supportive) and found the perfect spot on Pine/Ocean, right in front of the Convention Center.
I stalled while rosining my bow, and then..................I just played.
I played from my heart and soul. I played what I felt like playing. I played what I felt represented the moment.
Sure I messed up at times. It did not matter because the joy of playing in Downtown of my hometown, with the fresh Autumn air kissing my cheek, was intoxicating. The city lights as my background, the urban shuffle, and then the notes of a violin ringing through the air.
I was there. I was not confined to my home, with walls surrounding me. There were people, strangers, walking by. A few watched. A Parking attendant almost gave me a ticket. It was Amazing.
I felt the fear slip away, and I laughed at the silliness of it all.
As Promised I have provided footage of the event. Below are videos of my Street Debut.
Next Mission? Same spot, but on a Friday or Saturday night.
Footage:
**If you have trouble viewing you can go to my Video Bar (On the Left) to see the Youtube versions. There are 3 videos here, but there are more on my Youtube channel. *
Preparation
Tallulah Jammin!!!!
A Beautiful moment--Playing Meditation
